Full Term … those are two of the scariest words I’ve heard since Ectopic Pregnancy. Obviously, the significance behind them is dramatically different but they are words that when spoken out loud are literally life changing.
It’s hard to believe that we are thisclose to meeting our little guy. The possibility that he could be born any day now blows my mind. We’ve been waiting for so long to meet him and now it’s almost here. It’s hard to put into words exactly how I feel about his impending birth. While I am overjoyed to meet my son and become a mom at the same time I’m partly terrified about it. What if he hates me? What if I’m a bad mother? What if I can’t handle it? I try to push these thoughts out of my head but sometimes when I look at my other mom friends I feel inadequate already. They have it all together and make being a mother look so easy. They are so maternal, and when I think about how others view me, I wonder if they think I’m at all maternal. Or are they thinking “that poor child” ?? … it scares me to my core!
My biggest joy through this whole pregnancy has been watching Brian morph into a dad. In the beginning I think it was hard for him to grasp, but as I started showing and certainly after he was able to feel the baby move his whole attitude has changed. When he put the crib together and set up the nursery he sent me a text that just read “starting to get really excited!!!!” Since then he’s been very involved and wanting to help. Yesterday he spent a few hours assembling the swing, the bouncy seat, the stroller and installing the car seat. After he was done with that he “organized” the baby’s stuffed animals and put the changing pad cover on. It’s been really fun to watch him go through this. He’s also starting to realize how hard his job is going to be on him once the baby is here. Right now him working 7 days a week isn’t ideal but because it’s just the two of us we can make it work; but he has said more than once “I don’t know what I’m going to do when the baby is here”… he knows he isn’t going to want to be away from us that much and it’s already killing him trying to figure out how he can alter his schedule so he has more “family time.” I cannot wait for the first time he gets to hold his son. That’s a moment I think I’ll treasure forever. Now if only I can remember to take a picture of that!
Weekly Statics Updates:
Mommy at 36 Weeks:
Size: 18.5 inches and 6 pounds. I’d be okay if he only gained another 1.5 pounds. Don’t really want to go for any records here!
Development: Blood circulation is perfected now and his immune system has matured to face the outside world. His kidneys are fully developed and his liver can process some waste products. Going forward his weight gain will be top priority.
Symptoms at 36 Weeks:
How’s the Belly Looking: To quote my friend Jessica “Perfect Basketball”!
Braxton Hicks: For a brief moment last night I thought it might be time! Seriously, if BH are just “practice” then I think I’m in big trouble when the real thing starts!
Swelling: My fingers/hands are starting to swell a bit this week on top of my already swollen feet. My rings are still on though so that’s a good sign. But if the swelling keeps up I may just take them off for the last few weeks rather than risking having them cut off when I go into labor.
Pelvic Pressure / Discomfort: Despite my sciatica going away, I have been experiencing some pretty intense pressure the last few days. Similar to what my SPD felt like in the beginning.
Sleep: Amazingly enough I have been able to get almost 6 full hours of sleep each night the last couple days. It’s been wonderful to wake up feeling refreshed and ready to take on the day again!
Stretch Marks: Well… my hopes have been dashed. I have yet to see any on my stomach but sadly I did notice the beginnings (very faintly) of some on the front of my thighs! L This is disappointing to me because I didn’t really think my legs were growing that fast or much. I’m hoping they won’t get any worse but with 4 weeks to go I think I’ve lost this battle.
Baby-Related Purposes: A RUG! Finally!!! And some baskets for his diapers/wipes. Now I just have to find the perfect bookcase to put them in and some curtains…
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